Vacations are over now

I'm back, but still not quite completely all here yet. I underwent a real transformation in Copake, New York over the last week. My friends Vajra & Rose told me I'd leave the NY Witch Camp a different person, and they were right. I've left more stuff behind, and I'm willing to pick up more stuff.

My "magical name" I discovered on the plane trip back from North Dakota, actually. I was feeling quite apprehensive about the trip itself, wondering if there'd be some sort of attack on New York during the Republicuntvention. It seemed to be a real possibility, so I went into a meditation that became a trance, guided by none other than Cerridwen herself. She gave me my name then--"Frostwolff Kerrdorion" (the second name is Welsh for "Son of Cerridwen" though with a slight variation in spelling.)

So I introduced myself as "Frostwolff" at the Witchcamp. I have discovered more family members here, my spirit/soul family as opposed to my blood family. There were all these people whose energy I thoroughly enjoyed, and they reciprocated with such love and attention. I found myself really slowing down to take people in. I had an opportunity to start to heal my sexuality through this experience as well, and I even performed a piece I'd written a long time ago at the Talent Show.

I'm still processing this whole wondrous experience I just went through. I'm at work as I type these words, but a part of me is still "between the worlds," longing to be in connection with my family again. I developed crushes on men and women both (!) and I will be co-priestessing an Autumn Equinox ritual on Saturday at Vajra & Rose's place uptown. At one of the evening rituals, I got to devoke fire. "Crackle, crackle, fire burn, thanks to transform our concern/Blacken, blacken, cinder, ash, now please bless for us our trash!/Hail fire and farewell!" Some of my trickster energy came out in Copake, needless to say.

So. Today I sit at my computer terminal with a piece of black tourmaline on top of the monitor for protection. I'm wearing a fluorite crystal pendant which I was instructed to acquire by the spirit of Devils Lake herself. (I found it today at a store on Christopher Street.) I'm also wearing the saffron bands that were presented to me as part of one of the rituals. I am also wearing a bracelet I bought at the Witchcamp. It consists of amethyst and fluorite beads as well as a pearl, a moonstone, an onyx, a jasper, a couple of garnets and a chip of ruby even. I'm doing my best to take the experience out into the world and to see how my transformed self interacts with others. It's still too soon to tell as of yet.

Today is also the day I switch back to my night schedule. I wonder for how long this will last. It feels like a lot is shifting all around us. I'm going to try to reserve a spot for myself at the Winter Witchcamp in Minnesota, which will follow some of the myths of the Norse goddess Freya. Again I look forward to that. It's all a part of whatever transformation is to take place.

More will be revealed. Details forthcoming!