Going to Source in Meditation & A Fellow "Believer"

Really, it should be as simple as it was today. I went right into the Source of All That Is, and before I knew it, I was "in" Albany. Whether I was really there or not, it's hard to say. It felt like I was really there and in my body here in Manhattan simultaneously. I was on State Street and Pearl, and it appeared there were people either getting ready for a parade or some sort of Easter celebration. I saw a bunch of objects that reminded me of golden chicks. They might have been balloons or they might have been stuffed animals, or I don't know what. At first, I thought they were little kids dressed up though.

I walked up State Street to hang out on the Rotunda in front of the State Capitol. Some people were there feeding the birds, and to my surprise, after I sat down on a bench there, one of my sometime guides "Dave" appeared. Dave is an older fellow, a fisherman, white, very Christian-Middle-America type guy. He reminds me of fishing guides who are retired pillars of their communities and who volunteer for a nominal fee to escort outsiders around the lakes and waterways or maybe even into the forests for hunting. Dave was a comforting presence, and we didn't really have a lot to talk about, other than things are fine. We've got no complaints going, relax and enjoy things.

I thought it was interesting that I went to Albany though. Don't exactly know what that means except that I was really glad to be "out of New York" at least in my head. I do love that building, and evidently the building seems to like me. Other buildings in Albany could care one whit about me though, and the spirit of the City seems to enjoy me, but not anymore than others who love the town.

Reminds me, I watched Big Eden again the other day. This time around, though I cried again as per usual, I started to doubt what I wanted. Perhaps that is because I sense that it is becoming a reality around me, and that certain "old" frequencies are winding down and soon I'll be set free to create my own version of Heaven on Earth (HoE). All of the spiritual websites I read now say pretty much the same thing, that I need to constantly choose gratitude, love, acceptance and service to others to make HoE happen. So I breathe in my dreams right now. It feels pretty good, but there are responsibilities and there is grunt work, and there is tedium involved because that's what happens in all lives. The thing is I can choose my areas of tedious expertise. And I have several with which to play at any given time! I release the fear of achieving what I want in my life. I release also all my doubts about what I want and embrace community, good fellowship, helping others to enter into God/dess consciousness. I release my fears of want and lack as well, and I trust my source, the Source of All That Is.

Music: "Montana Half-Light" by Philip Aaberg. (Just love this tune, it's the third time I've played it tonight.)

UPDATE:

I've been surfing ye olde Webbe and I discovered a thoughtful article from a Christian gay perspective that basically says the same thing I have come to believe about the Religious Fanatical among us. These people need our love, friends. They need the light we can shine into their fearful lives, which they think is plenty bright enough right now. But check this link out:
http://www.whosoever.org/v9i5/minor.shtml

Minor says very eloquently what I've been saying to myself and to anyone who would listen. These people are basically drunk on their beliefs, and this can only escalate. The only real thing we can do is to calmly articulate our positions and live the best lives we can. Lead by example. Let it Begin With Me. Praise Jesus! (And Dian-y-Glas! and Hermes! and Kwan Yin! and Hekate! and Freya! and Odin! and Hestia! etc.)